Happy April Fools Day!!! I am not going to be a fool anymore...haha! In any case I am embarking on some new ideas for my "improvement project"....one being juicing, new machine coming tomorrow. I must be doing something right because the scale is moving...as of today I was out of the 190's...so on my way. Goin to increase the good, decrease the Not so good and move move move!!!!
Have a great day All!!
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Striving for Perfection
I often sit and think about what it is I want from this life. Turns out that most of the time I am always envisioning the perfect side of life and what I need to do to get there. I "think" I want the "perfect" body, the "perfectly" kept home, the "perfect" menu plan, the "perfect" pet , the "perfect" children....it really is endless in the scheme of things.
So what is perfect anyway? The dictionary says it means free from flaws, precisely accurate, and as good as it is possible to be. That leaves many different interpretations. I think I try to achieve the free from flaws and precisely accurate one and usually that proves impossible. This leads to a pattern of beginning my new "perfect" life over and over with all the guilty sprinklings in between when I fail to achieve the "flawless" life. This leaves me to ponder, maybe I can just try to be as good as it is possible to be...meaning what is possible for me and my life. We all have different responsibilities and obligations in our daily lives. What my day looks like is very different from my friends' life, or my neighbors' life or even my husbands' life. The quest for perfection has to be adapted to fit into your unique situation. I think the problem with perfection is that we look to a one size fits all model. It is like trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. Impossible. It will never work and that will lead to a further frustration as we keep trying to attain that which is unattainable.
Weekend days I usually sit and sip my coffee and I am thinking that I should be doing this or that and that I am letting time go by without being productive. All week long I have to follow a schedule....a certain time to get up, get showered, get to work, get the dinner on the table....so why is it that on my weekends I feel the same internal pressure to keep to a schedule. The pressure to not waste any precious time that could be spent on "perfecting" my house, "perfecting" my plans for this life. I think we have been conditioned to think that we must be busy all the time and if we are not in constant motion that we have failed. Why can't I just relax on a weekend and be still? Be still in mind as well as body. Why is it so hard for me to just take time to just enjoy the fact that I really have no schedule that I must follow. The house is not perfect and even if I spend every waking hour trying to achieve that perfection, it really is unattainable. There will always be something to do, to fix, to plan, to wash, to put away, to cook, etc etc. So I am working today on giving myself permission to breathe and be happy that I have this precious time to do what I want, not what I have to do. What I want to do may well be the laundry or some cleaning but I can do it on my time and what doesn't get done does not mean failure.
I am striving to be the "perfect" that is possible for me, including learning to relax and be still. Make every day great and be good to yourselves, and remember it is okay to go off schedule when that is possible and it also okay to enjoy that special time.
So what is perfect anyway? The dictionary says it means free from flaws, precisely accurate, and as good as it is possible to be. That leaves many different interpretations. I think I try to achieve the free from flaws and precisely accurate one and usually that proves impossible. This leads to a pattern of beginning my new "perfect" life over and over with all the guilty sprinklings in between when I fail to achieve the "flawless" life. This leaves me to ponder, maybe I can just try to be as good as it is possible to be...meaning what is possible for me and my life. We all have different responsibilities and obligations in our daily lives. What my day looks like is very different from my friends' life, or my neighbors' life or even my husbands' life. The quest for perfection has to be adapted to fit into your unique situation. I think the problem with perfection is that we look to a one size fits all model. It is like trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. Impossible. It will never work and that will lead to a further frustration as we keep trying to attain that which is unattainable.
Weekend days I usually sit and sip my coffee and I am thinking that I should be doing this or that and that I am letting time go by without being productive. All week long I have to follow a schedule....a certain time to get up, get showered, get to work, get the dinner on the table....so why is it that on my weekends I feel the same internal pressure to keep to a schedule. The pressure to not waste any precious time that could be spent on "perfecting" my house, "perfecting" my plans for this life. I think we have been conditioned to think that we must be busy all the time and if we are not in constant motion that we have failed. Why can't I just relax on a weekend and be still? Be still in mind as well as body. Why is it so hard for me to just take time to just enjoy the fact that I really have no schedule that I must follow. The house is not perfect and even if I spend every waking hour trying to achieve that perfection, it really is unattainable. There will always be something to do, to fix, to plan, to wash, to put away, to cook, etc etc. So I am working today on giving myself permission to breathe and be happy that I have this precious time to do what I want, not what I have to do. What I want to do may well be the laundry or some cleaning but I can do it on my time and what doesn't get done does not mean failure.
I am striving to be the "perfect" that is possible for me, including learning to relax and be still. Make every day great and be good to yourselves, and remember it is okay to go off schedule when that is possible and it also okay to enjoy that special time.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
My how time FLIES!!!
I post... I reflect... I get busy with life....Its a vicious cycle but always seems to happen to me...I can't seem to stay consistent with much in my life. Great ideas go thru my head and I make a promise to do this or to do that and then POOF... its gone and I am muddling thru my bad habit routines.... My eating is a little off this week, after work I don't feel much like doing anything....Not that I have a strenuous job but it is mentally challenging some days...Its just that the alarm clock goes off very early and by the time I get home I am ready to take a little nap, that sometimes turn into a longer than I should nap...
I exercised last night and it was a good thing and I weighed this morning and things are still going in the right direction but I must stay DILIGENT..all it takes is a string of bad habits that turn into bad days and then weeks and then months and well you get the picture...I can not afford to WASTE anymore of my time NOT being healthy!!!
I exercised last night and it was a good thing and I weighed this morning and things are still going in the right direction but I must stay DILIGENT..all it takes is a string of bad habits that turn into bad days and then weeks and then months and well you get the picture...I can not afford to WASTE anymore of my time NOT being healthy!!!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
ANOTHER YEAR HAS PASSED
Isn't it always the way, we start a plan, we are all GUNG HO! excited and ready...Yes we are ready to do whatever it is we want to do. For a few weeks, maybe a couple months we are on FIRE...then LIFE steps in and gets so crazy that our fire is extinguished.....well maybe not completely out but definitely in need of HELP!!!. I have such an experience with my weight loss Journey...Been on this RIDE for 5 years now...had some success in 2007 but since then have had a couple surgeries and keep jumping on and falling off this "wagon". Right now I am ON again, in a competition and losing wieght once more. It is not rocket science as I have found out yet again...it is about desire, and resolve mostly...I can give in and eat to my hearts content ( things I KNOW are not healthy and WILL wreak havoc on my efforts)....or I can adjust and adapt and stand strong...
The other element is the exercise one, and again I can convince myself what is needed, and bargain with myself for more time in the recline position...BUT I KNOW that I need to MOVE it in some way or it just ain't gonna happen. Most important here is that even though I am so NOT into it before I get started, once I Push myself to some sort of exercise, I find I can continue with the workout-
so remember the First steps are the toughest and an object in motion will stay in motion and one at rest will stay at rest.... CHANGING that is up to YOU...
So Feb 1 2012...Here we go..I am BACK!!!
The other element is the exercise one, and again I can convince myself what is needed, and bargain with myself for more time in the recline position...BUT I KNOW that I need to MOVE it in some way or it just ain't gonna happen. Most important here is that even though I am so NOT into it before I get started, once I Push myself to some sort of exercise, I find I can continue with the workout-
so remember the First steps are the toughest and an object in motion will stay in motion and one at rest will stay at rest.... CHANGING that is up to YOU...
So Feb 1 2012...Here we go..I am BACK!!!
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