MAY 22 2011

I am facing yet another surgery, for my knee this time...torn up meniscus. I have wasted 13 years trying to get into shape. That is the age of my youngest child, and I can remember borrowing my neighbors jog stroller to use when he was just a baby. The sad news is I have NOT lost any weight but have actually GAINED. I top the scales now at 195. In 2007 I did it, I lost 34 lbs and was 165, felt good, clothes fitting good, and then a bladder surgery and some LAZY ways resurfaced and WHAMO...the lbs are back, even after I vowed never to go back. What will it take for me to really make lasting changes? I know I don't like the way I am looking today, or the way I am feeling, I must make a CHANGE!!!

February Is almost over...

It is the 25th of the month, and I am sitting here with a weekend ahead and many things to fit into it. I have big plans for my weekend....get the laundry caught up, go thru all sorts of "hot spots" around the house, many big big plans...so how do I keep myself on track and make some really important progress.
One step and one day at a time....one room and one job at a time.....Seeing the little steps that make the big picture....Not the Big Picture and then the anxiety of what ALL  that has to be done...Things are always easier to swallow when you break it up into little pieces...
Well, to get it done tomorrow, I must rest tonight....

Same old STORY...

...and I am sick of it, but seem to be frozen in this holding pattern. Always looking for the Best day to start, the best time to do this or that, the Best way, the best of everything, and then GUESS WHAT....Nothing..

Thats right,
nada, zero, nothing, zilch, zip.....that whats I get done and that how I feel...
So I have to figure out a way to get myself moving
NO MATTER WHAT...

Another week has passed, a new month begun ....Make it happen!!

An ICE DAY, a chance to start the change!

      My school is closed today, because of an Ice Storm....lots of power outages around here. This is a good chance for me to do some productive projects today. Projects that I usually think a lot about but never ever really get to because other things pop up that need the immediate attention. I do plenty of planning and thinking in my head, but transferring that to ACTION has been a problem for many many years.
                               PROCRASTINATION
delay or postpone ACTION......Put Off Doing Something.....
Hmmmmmmm.....I seem to be VERY GOOD at this activity, I don't understand why I do this to myself but even when I make strides to change I always seem to fall back into this pattern....I DONT LIKE IT.....but then again, maybe I do...but I am not aware of it. So I never give CHANGE a chance...

I have to learn to give change a chance to grow and create some new habits that will make me feel better about everything in my life.

Thats all for now, because in order to create change I need to stop YAPPING  about it and start some actual actions of change......